May 15th 2025
It's all going well! I'm trying to keep busy and productive. I've started a Japanese course created by Chani Japan. It's working really well for me! I'm trying to get daily yoga practice back into my routine too.
I've started having yoghurt with chia seed and fruit every morning to get good fibre since I had been having white bread with soft boiled eggs for just over a month now and it was making me feel a little sluggish in the afternoon. We work 11 hour shifts at the weekend but try to just have a small breakfast with yoghurt drink, fruit for lunch then a big meal in the evening when we get home. I drink a lot of green tea/puerh tea at work throughout the day but it's been so hot in England this spring I've just chugged water every day.
It's my boyfriends 30th birthday at the end of this month so we decided to go for a small break and an amazing meal at a fancy restaurant near London next week. We don't tend to get each other crazy expensive gifts, instead we prefer to put money back into our apartment buying new furniture. However this year, since it's a big milestone birthday, I got him an original PS2 promo poster from Japan for our gaming room. I'm so bad at keeping surprises it feels like I'm going to explode holding it in for so long!
Aside from that, I'm getting a new tattoo on the 26th and have carried on getting acupuncture/cupping every few weeks to aleviate stress and back pain caused from my job standing at a workbench for long hours.
I also want to buy a rice cooker this month since we always end up buying the microwavable cooked steamed rice but it's quite expensive here compared to uncooked rice. I've been looking up a bunch of rice cooker recipes I think would be ideal to make after work - filling, nutritious and easy! Anything I can stick on to cook and not have to worry about whilst I go for a shower is a win for me!
all the best, Cara
May 5th 2025
Wow. It's been a while!! Let me tell you what's been going on in my life.
I got sober this year for the first time since 2020. I was really struggling with my mental health and had to take some time off work. I have this conflict where I have a high paying job [which ofc I am grateful for, I wouldn't be able to be a homeowner without it in this economy!!] but it does not fulfil me at all and I certainly don't want it to be my career. I want to do something creative.
I had been smoking a lot of w33d every day for years and thinking it was fulfilling me but the reality is I was numbing myself. I legit forgot what I like and what makes me happy, I stopped doing hobbies and seeing friends, I would just isolate and get st0ned. Now I'm sober I feel so much better and clear headed, able to concentrate on stuff like coding this site properly rather than doing 5 mins then getting bored. I had to delete apps from my phone with any kind of short videos feature cos it legit feels like that was reducing my attention span.
My boyfriend and I have been living together for 3 years now, going out for 6 years so people are starting to ask about when we are having kids etc. One of my best friends had a baby last year and meeting him was such an eye opening time and made me so full of joy for the future to see him grow and be a part of his life. I really do want kids eventually, but I want to start a career that I really care about and travel more first.
Going to Japan is number one on that list and I'm going to start with a Japanese tutor this year. 2 months ago I was just dreading the future but now I'm genuinely excited and have energy to face challenges rather than just hide.
I also started therapy for the first time ever and am processing a lot of stuff that happened in my early 20s. I turn 30 next year and I can really feel that will be a more positive and adventurous decade for me.
Be well! and look after yourselves!!! Eat healthy and look after your teeth lol
Lots of love, your friend Cara
Aug. 21st 2024
Waaaa I'm so bad at writing on here in a personable way. I am a nice person I promise, I seem to come onto update this when i'm sick or in a bad mood.
Jul. 10th 2024
I'm here! added some little bits. I've focussed on self improvement this year, so far I've taken an art class, met up with friends, revamped my diet and left my apartment on my own more.
Apr. 9th 2024
Welp... hi guys lol I am working on stuff just slowly and about 10 minutes every few weeks.
Nov. 22nd 2023
Bleughhh... the winter finally caught up with me and I've been full of a cold for a week now. I have been slowly chipping away at my site but mostly been playing games in my down time.
a new project...
Nov. 1st 2023
Morning all! I bought the domain syntheticfruits.online this week... thinking of building a new site for graphic design/art/clothes stuff. Honestly, I don't really know yet. I didn't really feel motivated to do anything on my site this week which is strange because I have been spending hours on it for months. I need to stop punishing myself when I get creative block and just.. go outside instead. Hopefully next week won't be like that. I am looking for recommendations for cosy games for the winter so please let me know! I am going to make a fave games page soon. ttyl! x
welcome to my diary!
Oct. 24th 2023
So.... I decided to start a diary on my site? I hope I remember to keep up with it! My only plans are to pick some coffee beans up today with my bf and have a nice lunch in the little town where the roastery is. 
Anyway.. I'll sign off for now..
...Oct. 24th 15:51pm
Update!! We went for a tasty late lunch at a farm shop.
No big plans for the rest of the day now.. just going to relax and take a bath tonight since it was cold and rainy out today. Bye for now!!
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